I've had a stressful day and I kept not having a chance to pause and calm down (3 kids and the last day of Easter break). It's persisted all day with the exception of a few distracted hours this afternoon.

My thoughts and fears have become really irrational and I know they are absurd but I'm still scared. Flashbacks have of course come back. It's so disheartening that they inevitably come when my current stress has nothing to do with my past?? Then I sit with the current stressors and my past in my head all at once and feel broken. I don't have another word for it. Demented? Crazy? Like I can't handle one more thing idk. The only thing I can think of is flying down to A&E to speak to the crisis team, which I wouldn't cos it feels like a waste of resources, or call SPA, who seem to not do much. Idk what else to do?