I know I'm struggling right now but I did have to have unexpected and very dramatic opp just a month ago. I know I can and will get into a better place, not meaning to annoy anyone on the way. I just need to get on track again!
I just had a huge chat about everything that's happened with my Mam and she's been so understanding! I feel so lucky. I mean? Do I still struggle feeling like my heart either to fast or to slow? All that stuff? Yes, but I'm edging towards coming out of this. I have some wonderful people around me
Also, just want to add- Went from constantly checking my body- to daily- to weekly - to monthly. It's not a constant thought anymore. I just need to kick this heart thing out and I'll be so much better than I ever thought I would be! It's like I can't win- Some parts of the day my heart going to slow and other times it fast and feels like it's going to burst. I have manged to stay off doctor google because that would have me in the grave already. The last time I was at the doctor she said my heart sounded fine and my friend shitted all over that saying she can't tell much from that. So that's a thought always back there! Sometimes people aren't the best support so that's why you gotta support yourself I suppose!
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