I am in such a state right now. I can't do anything but focus on my horrible symptoms! I know for sure I have cancer this time. I have ALL the symptoms of it. I'm 53 and going through perimenopause . My anxiety is through the roof. I've had health anxiety all my life . But this time I fear I am right with my diagnoses. I'm the right age I have all of the symptoms.
I'm absolutely terrified. I'm too terrified to go to the hospital to get diagnosed. If I already having pain symptoms I'm already dead. There is NO CURE for Pancreatic Cancer!!!
So I don't know what I should do. Should I just wait it out and die from it naturally in a few months or go get diagnosed. Either way I'm dead. The fear itself is going to KILL me one way or another. With or without a diagnoses. If I didn't have children that still needed me I think I would just give up and just die. My brain is so messed up. The panic attacks that I have all through the night about this is killing me too. I'M SO BLOODY SCARED!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO DIE!!!!!