Fear of melanoma

[BlueIris]

Yes, absolutely. Of course it's grown with the rest of you.

[Kiko22]

I'm literally paralized with fear... I can't sleep at night and keep imagining myself in a coffin soon! I'm sure this time is really cancer and I'll die from it! I'm really scared this time and don't know what to do😨

[BlueIris]

Are you seeing anybody for your anxiety?

[Kiko22]

Yeah I go to therapy once every two weeks..
It goes better and I feel better but every now and then I get anxious about my body... I have a dermatology appointment in July (😨😨&#128552 but I can't wait so long!

[BlueIris]

I promise, you'll be fine.

[Kiko22]

I can't wait any longer! I'm thinking about going to the ER... I can't sleep at night, I can't eat... I'm crying all day😨

[Kiko22]

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[BlueIris]

You have bigger problems than a mole, Kiko, this is no way to live.

[Kiko22]

I won't post anymore on this forum. Nobody seems to care and it seems I'm just talking to myself here and making myself a foolish with everyone... Good bye

[Kiko22]

Ok, I'll try again... I know I told I wouldn't post anymore but now I'm alone and can't talk to anyone right now so I have to vent...
My mole has definitely changed, maybe not so much in size but in shape... It us more elevated, more "fat"
I'm going to my dermatologist appointment tomorrow and I feel like I'm going to walk to my execution
I tried to talk with my parents and they believe I'm making it up and it is just my anxiety, but it isn't!
Now I'm alone with my cat crying because I just know I won't see him growing up!
I can't find nothing online like the mole I have... It is not flat but really raised, like a little ball of brown fat attached to my skin, just one color and symmetric... Problem is it DID change over time!
If someone, please, anyone knows something about melanoma please help me!
Thanks and sorry...