Multiple Sclerosis (MS) Fears

[MisguidedDoddle]

Hi All,

I;m having a pretty hard time dealing with feelings that I have MS. It is mainly the fact that every now and then I get weird twitches and spasms in my face and legs, and that my right leg feels like stiff and awkward to move- I am moving with a bit of a gait.

Now I feel like this could be for many different reasons. I had a very stressful time last week, got little sleep and didnt eat too much. I also sat with my legs in unusual positions, my right big toe also eroded quite a lot of the base of my sole through friction! I am hoping these are the reasons my legs feel bad. But it feels strange that the gait is coming on more now, that it hasn't gone away after a week, and that I am getting these strange sensations on my legs and face. I am going to the doctors tomorrow, going to try and focus on my anxiety as the main reason I am there, but this is also genuinely very much concerning me. I am finding it had to eat or relax at all, and I am going into times of frequent panic at work and generally feeling really quite awful.

Any support would be really, really appreciated!

Thanks in Advance,
Misguided Doddle

[BlueIris]

Hi!

Please try not to worry? MS is rare, weird bodily sensations aren't. It sounds as though you've had a really rough time lately, which won't be helping.

Why not book a GP appointment to discuss your fears? You can explain what you're feeling and ask for help with the excessive anxiety.

[MisguidedDoddle]

It's mainly the slightly weird walk and tension in my right leg which is causing worry, though of course I've been putting that leg through quite a lot of tension recently!

I have indeed, this is the last week of my placement and last week was very very intense, so it is a bit of an odd time. i have lots of time off after this so hopefully that will help me to relax.

I have got a GP appointment booked for tomorrow at 11:30, I'll be sure to keep you posted of the results! Thanks for the help and reassurance, it means a lot.

[BlueIris]

May I ask what sort of placement you're on? If it's Health and Social care, you're going to be on your feet all the time, that's going to make things feel weird.

[MisguidedDoddle]

I do programming at an investment bank. I sat in lots of weird positions last week, like crossing one leg under the other whilst jiggling the right leg, frantically moving my big toe eroding my show, slouching etc. I also have a 2 hour commute on a train (4 hours total there and back), so my posture isn't so great then either. But I have only noticed this slightly lopsided walk in within the last week, though it does line up with the stress and weird positions

[BlueIris]

Believe me, that'll do it, yes.

[MisguidedDoddle]

Having the doctors appointment today. Quite a bit nervous about it all. I forgot whether I booked it for 11:10 or 11:30! Regardless I will keep you posted about the results. In all honesty I am very much hoping she doesnt find any cause to send me off to tests, and tells me what I am experiencing is normal. I would be more worried if she offers me tests because that to me suggests she thinks something is wrong!

[BlueIris]

I'll be thinking of you. Genuinely don't think you have anything to worry about, though.

[MisguidedDoddle]

Thanks, a lot for the support. It means a lot. My dad just got angry at me for not being able to tell him why I have anxiety and shouting at me for not feeling better after he tried to give me solutions. So I have got to make my own way to the doctors now. Which doesn't help with the general stress and anxiety of the situation. Support from forum peeps means a lot right now

[BlueIris]

I'm so sorry. Not sure how old you are, but my parents used to basically punish me for my anxiety and depression too. They did get better, but it took a very long time, unfortunately.