So, i really have been doing better with my anxiety, but there are still undertones of worry that i can't shake.
I recnetly posted about abdominal pain, and worry it was something serious. While it comes and goes, my mind put it together with something else, renewing the worry. I wake up every day at 4:445, and immediately use the restroom. Go and take my morning thyroid pill (with a glass of water), and get dressed and head off to work. One there (6-6:30), i have my breakfast and an energy drink (16oz), after which i fill my 32oz cup and have that during the morning. All of that said, because it worries me that I don't have to use the restroom again until around 8-8:30, which seems like too long of a time (even then it usually isn't a strong urge to go). And yes, when i go, it feels like it is a bit too yellow. Throughout the day, it does get better, and if i drink enough, may wind up completely clear.
In the end, i am worried that the long morning time is a sign of something sinister. I feel like i see my other coworkers going earlier than me, and it feels wrong that i don't have a strong urge that first time (i swear, other people sound like they are going after bottling it up all night, its crazy). My logic says that after a long sleep (especially if i didn't drink as much in the prior evening), of course my body will take time to get going. I am just worried i have really damaged and/or destroyed my kidneys, and the worst is yet to come...