I’m really spiralling. I feel sick.
last month when I was in the shower I noticed a very raised prominent vein on my left breast. It started at the front by the nipple, snaked up in an s about 1/3 up and then trailed off to the side of the breast (side closes to armpit but not up in to the armpit. I lost the trail so to speak) at first I thought it was multiple lumps as that’s exactly as it felt. Until you traced your finger and realised it was a lumpy vein. It went down with in about 5 hours and no more signs of this until yesterday.
Its back again but not the same vein. It’s more to the left this time but again starts by the nipple, kind of a curved line up about an inch long, trails to the left again and then you you lose it. Kind of like s funny 7 shape. I can see it when I look at the breast. It again looks and feels like loads of tiny lumps and bumps, it feels sore this time. I was praying it would be gone by the morning but it hasn’t. It’s not as raised as last night but I can still see it and feel it. There is no colour to it though, it’s not blue or greeny and it wasn’t last time either.
Im freaking out and I made the mistake of googling, of course cancer, cancer and more breast cancer.
Ive had issues with my breasts for 7 months now. My breasts are quite big, I’m pale skinned so you can see every fickle, mark and blue vein. I’ve been having lots of pains but mainly in the right breast. It’s been an obsession for 7 months but normally I’ve been able to rationalise when the anxiety isn’t taking over but this time I can’t.
I am ovulating and and I was ovulating when it came up last time and I’m just clinging on to hope it’s to do with that? But I can’t find any evidence to back that up on google. I also have a small spot which came up right at the top of the breast (where the breasts meet) on the left boob. It’s been very sore as I’ve picked it and been applying loads of sudacrem. Now I’ve got more sore spots on my chest above it.
Im just not coping right now. I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I’ve had enough of all this worry about dying and being ill. My health anxiety has also mutated in that I’m not somebody who goes to the Drs for reassurance, I avoid as I’m too scared to go.
Please anyone 😢😢