I was doing really well up until now, but when we went out for the 4th it July, something touched the palm of my hand. It was dark out and there was a ton of moths flying around (other bugs, too) the lights. I didn’t see a bat or feel, like, leathery wings or anything, but all I did was swat whatever touched me away. It felt small, honestly, which is the only thing I’ve been able to tell myself to calm down. It seemed too small to be a bat, almost like it could fit in the palm of my hand.
Here’s the ‘not a bat’ reasons to calm down:
-too small (possibly)
-kind of felt a buzz, like a bug
-didn’t feel leathery wings slap me
-didn’t see a bat when I looked behind me
-my hand was turned inside, near my thigh, so a bat would’ve had to get in the middle
Here are the reasons I’m having anxiety:
-what if it only brushed my hand, which is why I didn’t feel the wings
-it was dark out
-I can’t know for sure it wasn’t a bat
Thing is, I’m not so worried about myself. If I die, whatever. My health anxiety centers on my family. What I can’t get out of my head is the thought that a bat brushed my hand and then I inadvertently infected my family with rabies afterward. I washed my hand three times with soap and hot water and then swam in a pool that smelled like it had more chlorine than water in it, so I think I got rid of anything (rabies or not) on my hand, lol.