If you're having serious and / or overwhelming thoughts of harming yourself, or anyone else, please seek professional help immediately. Call your doc, see a therapist, or go to the ER. Your anxiety is spiraling, and you just need to try and get it under control. It takes time, patience, and lots and lots of practice. A therapist and medication will not magically cure your anxiety. The medication can help take the edge off, and the therapist gives you the tools you need to (not all inclusive) 1) identify triggers, 2) identify the anxious behaviors and thoughts "in the moment", and 3) alter your behavior to more appropriately deal with those thoughts.
But if you're a danger to yourself or anyone else, you shouldn't wait to seek help.