ok, i am sooo embarassed posting this, but i feel like my problem is getting out of hand and i'm hoping some lovely nmp'ers might be able to sympathise a little!
i have got kind of obsessed that i might need an... ahem... number 2 when i am out somewhere, which means that i dont really want to be out of the house any length of time. i am ok if i know there is a relatively private and clean public toilet where i am going, but if not it is a real problem.
Although i do have a major 'thing' about hygiene, it is definitely more of an embarassment problem than anything else, cos going round to other peoples houses is the biggest worry of all, honestly i seem to have this irrational fear that i am the only person in the world that ever needs to have a poo!
if someone invites me out or round to their house it is the first thing that comes into my head, and then because i get myself all worked up about it, i end up trying to go hundreds of times before i leave the house, and my stomach ends up in a tight knot and i end up getting a stress-related dodgy tummy anyway, so its a bit of a vicious circle!
ok, so anyway, i'm very embarassed now so i'm going to press the button before i decide to delete all this!