I used to be a frequent visitor to NMP many years ago when my HA was at its peak. I received great support and many positive advice from the beautiful souls here. I am glad to say that I managed to overcome my HA finally. Today I am back here to reach out to
all of you in this very trying time. At first I was not sure whether I should come here and share my news for fear that it might trigger the unnecessary but at the same time I know that I will receive the support I desperately need from the lovely people here.
I received the result of the biopsy of my two small lesions on my groin last Monday - it was Squamous Cell Carcinoma. I should also add that it is HPV positive. The good news was that it was completely excised. The not so good news there was another spot on my vulva which appeared differently than the lesions excised which the doctor cauterised instead of excised. This will be looked at further at my next appointment next Tuesday.
I have been through the past few days in a daze, trying very hard to stay positive and optimistic through this ordeal. There are many uncertainties ahead. Then the anxiety kicked so strongly. The word metastatic keeps on crossing my mind; the poor prognosis; the high recurrence etc etc. I am finding it harder and harder to find even the tiniest amount of optimism.
I am very sorry if my post here cause anxiety in some people but I do not know where else to go to share this. I really hope that there are people out there who have been through the same or know anyone who experienced similar feat can share their stories. It will definitely help me to go through this.