Raised Anxiety after starting Ven

[Maca44]

Had the best nights sleep last night I have had in months so feel pretty good today much more in the loop of life again and able to get out with family and enjoy things. I think I am responding well to the Ven increase and hope this continues.

[Dying_Swan]

That's so good to hear! I'm so glad you're doing so much better

[Maca44]

That's so good to hear! I'm so glad you're doing so much better

Are you finding things any better ?. How are the teatime moods.

[Dying_Swan]

I think a bit better thanks. Still get the ups and downs but haven't had the really awful lows at 5 for a little while, so keeping my fingers crossed.

[Maca44]

Sounds like things are coming together. I was thinking today, while at the local cat & rabbit rescue centre summer fair, how alien the feelings of happiness and relaxation is to me. I have spent so much time in the dark side of my mind I have almost forgotten how normal feels, what is an every day feeling for most has been absent in my life for so long. I have had a glimpse of how things can be for the last few days and it is most welcome.

[Dying_Swan]

I understand exactly what you mean, 100%. Those glimpses are lovely. I really hope they become less of a rarity and a more frequent occurrence, and it looks promising

[Maca44]

Bit of an up and down day today but still feeling better and any anxiety is short lived. I think I need to just accept any moods as normal and stop trying to be this person who is always happy and stress free. I have always said to myself, one day I will be that perfect person, but he doesn't exist or ever will so I can take the pressure off myself.

[Dying_Swan]

I agree with you about acceptance, and I think it's easy to put pressure on yourself that you should feel amazing every day, but that's not realistic for anyone and everyone has up and down days. Some sort of normality is my aim, whatever that is

[Maca44]

Yer normal for me is just having some time not freaking out about some silly thing and be able to engage with whatever I'm doing.

[Maca44]

Well a gauge of my mood can be measured by my car. I am a little ocd and always keep my car clean and waxed but the last few months its just been sat in the garage dirty from when we got back from a weekend break. Today its been washed waxed and is looking like new. I'm getting an interest in things back and its so nice to be getting bits of me back 😀