I have an amazing relationship with my Mam I tell her absolutely everything and love her more than life itself and always have done. Last night in bed I got this thought into my head thinking what if I didn’t really love my mother and if something happened to her I’d be happy. I don’t know why I got this thought but I’m now worried I don’t actually love my mother at all and I feel incredibly guilty over it. I half told her about it earlier telling her I had a dream about it and woke up upset and she laughed and told me that it was only a dream and she wasn’t going to even entertain that thought. I did have these thoughts with my ex boyfriend even though I knew I loved him but I got over it as I knew it wasn’t true. I feel so incredibly guilty even thinking it and am worrying if it is a self conscious thought and not ocd/anxiety. Anyone ever had anything like this happen before? Would love an input.