Very afraid
I've deliberated over posting this on the forums as I don't even know if it belongs on an anxiety website. Last Saturday Mrs F revealed she has a lump in her left breast, that she has had discharge and flaky skin from the nipple. She last had a mammogram in late 2015 which showed a total of 7 cysts. On Monday she phoned the GP and was seen within an hour. In fact he was a registrar but anyway he's referred her to the breast clinic. They phoned yesterday morning but Mrs F was recovering from an epileptic seizure so couldn't take it, they will phone back on Monday.
I resisted the urge to google for a few days but gave in. Some info was reassuring and some frightening. Today we went for a drive through the countryside, then got some chips and sat in the car. Its just one of those everyday things couples do but when we got home I blubbed like a little kid. My mood has swung from between despair, relief and panic. The anxiety thinks its Christmas but I can't let it get in the way. Mrs F needs me now more than ever. I really cannot entertain the thought of life without her.
There's nothing anyone can really say I know.
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'It was a wedding ring, destined to be found in a cheap hotel, lost in a kitchen sink, or thrown in a wishing well' - Marillion, Clutching at Straws, 1987