Hi.

I am not sure If I am going to be able to express myself very well. But my thoughts are actually getting stronger when something GOOD happens.

Right now, at this moment, everything is going quite well. I actually feel happy, which is unusual for me. 99% percent of the time I am an anxious mess, worrying about everything and anything.

Now, when there are some good things happening, I am afraid to FEEL ok. It is like, if I don't worry, something will inevitably go wrong. It sounds so illogical when I think about it. It seems like worrying gives me some sort of reassurance. It is absurd.

What can I do ? I want to enjoy the good days...