I lucky was able to break the pattern before- I've been nearly two years with any harm. So, to be it felt like another step back. Which I know if my friend came to me with the issues I was having I wouldn't think that at all! The mind can be a funny thing. (Also, I'm sorry that from my reading of your post, you've dealt with self-harm before and I'm sorry you had it deal with it. It's horrible.) Yeah- work was nice actually! My co-worker who has a idea that I'm having a rough time brought me in homemade pizza he made himself! It was a lovely gesture.