Like whoa Cary
Yous sure is sensitive to language gal!
Then I saw your Brit id and it all makes sense. Where I come from, I'll and sick ggot the same meaning. So when yous add mentally to it the meaning don't change. I'm guessing that I'll and sick don't got the same meaning in UK?
If your asking me to try and use Brit English when I write, I can't do it because I can't even write my own language correct.
Your stressing yourself out over a word. That can't be doing your mental sickness any good.
Try some relaxation and yoga, meditation etc to calm yourself down
Charlie