Quote Originally Posted by darkside4k View Post
Hey Everyone,

I wanted to come back and give everyone an update on my health situation. Some of you may remember by very long thread a while back that started about lymph nodes and ended up on ALS a full year later. A brief recap, my symptoms were / are:

- Muscle pain in various muscles throughout body, but primarily in my right shin.
- A feeling of muscle fatigue where my muscles wear out more easily.
- Twitching in various places. Sometimes focused in one place for a week at a time or more.

This has been going on about 7 weeks. I went to PCP which sent me to Rheumatologist, which referred me to Neurologist for an NCV + EMG test in order to rule out any nerve problems.

Today I had the NCV + EMG and both were totally normal. The neurologist said I do not have anything like ALS and ALS is very obvious on an EMG.

I just wanted to provide that follow-up because I know I appreciate when someone has similar symptoms as me and posts an update that everything turned out fine. I don't know where I'll be going from here as I think the Rheumatologist may still want to pursue some other things - but, ALS, which was my main fear, is apparently out of the question based on the EMG results.
Quote Originally Posted by darkside4k View Post
I can already feel myself slipping back into health anxiety. Wondering why I do have shin muscle soreness in my right leg. Maybe I have some other very serious disease or even cancer. Maybe MS. Maybe some sort of cancer. Maybe some sort of debilitating muscular disease. Heck, maybe even ALS even though I’ve had a clean EMG - although I do still accept that is unlikely.

I have to admit I still have strange muscle soreness in my legs, particularly my right shin.

I don’t want to go back to this dark place.

I have to accept that death is always a possibility at any time. I think that is the root of hypochondria. Scared of dying and leaving people behind. Scared of your family members being sad after you’re gone, etc. Scared for my kids to not have a Dad.

But, I need to accept that that is always a possibility. How many kids lost their dads just this week? Thousands? Someone dies in the US every 12 seconds. Multiple people have died since I started writing this post just in my country alone.
Darkside,

What we see here is something we just haven't been seeing throughout your post history on NMP. There is a rational side there that knows they are just fears and they are not grounded in reality.

When you are not posting here, in a spiral, is this the other you? Can you recognise this rational side as you have done here? Doesn't this show the problem is in your mind because why would you be certain during the spiral but know it's nonsense the rest of the time? Do you believe the rational you outside of the spirals is ignoring something dangerous or do you just accept it was how you felt then and not how you feel now?