I took a call from my Dr after my blood test yesterday. My white cell count is apparently very low indeed, they didn't even ask me to go for a re test, they said I have to go for an urgent appointment this afternoon. I just know it is leukemia or lymphoma. I am a complete and utter mess. I am not even able to think straight. I had to leave work because I was in too much of a state to stay. I literally didn't know my anxiety could be this bad. I can't stop thinking about dying and how long I have left to live. I just can't actually do this.