Just wanted to say I made it ! I went to New york at the weekend for four days, after months of being terrified and feeling I couldnt go (and boring anyone who would listen about how terrified I was....particularly GG and Dave....sorry guys and thanks....you can come out now, I wont mention it again after this lol!)
It was great and I'm so glad I did it, not just because of the experience but because depite my fear (I was shaking and crying when I left the house ), I made myself do it anyway. I did use my rescue remedy and had my diazepam with me all the time, the crowded streets and traffic did get to me a bit, the scary New York taxi ride nearly finished me off... but I did it! (my hubby admitted he half expected me to appear at the door a couple of hours after he'd dropped me off for the taxi to the airport lol)
The experience was fantastic, theres so much to see and do, even went to a broadway show, which was great. Saw most of the major sights, drank cosmopolitan cocktails, regressed to my teenage days with my friends (including very juvenile humour ) and laughed so much at times, the tears rolled down my cheeks!! I'm back absolutely shattered, but with a little chuffed smile for myself.
So thanks to you all again for listening and for your support...it helped so much.
luv Coni XX