Is there any hope for me?

[Mrsmitchell1984]

Ok that is helpful. Thank you BlueIris. How are you doing today? X

[Mrsmitchell1984]

Also do you know what causes it each time? Or is it not important really and wasting time?

[BlueIris]

I've stopped seeking causes, to be honest; I'm prone to this sort of thing, and it's just something I have to live with. As I've said, it's a nuisance rather than a tragedy.

As for how I'm doing, I'm still very tired and having trouble being as productive as I'd like to, and I'm having a lot of self-esteem issues. That said, I'm starting to get excited about future projects again, which is always a good sign.

[Mrsmitchell1984]

I agree with you about causes - I think I am prone just like you. Yes it is a nuisance rather than a tragedy.

I don’t know why you have self -esteem issues - you are incredible in terms of helping me when you are going through bad patches yourself and you are so creative.

I am pleased to see you are getting excited about projects- that is a very good sign. I started feeling excited about doing bead work thanks to you and then I felt that was a turning point in me feeling better.

i just need to get back into that frame of mind again - with time x

xxxx

[BlueIris]

I have faith in you - you'll be awesome!

[Mrsmitchell1984]

I have faith in you - you'll be awesome!

Aw thank you Blue Iris xxxx

[Carnation]

I'm pretty much the same as BlueIris and I have to say the depression does not bother me or hinder me as much as the anxiety does.

Can I say something Mrs M?
I think you are too wrapped up in the anxiety and depression stuff, you need to take a break from anything related to either of them. Become neutral.
It's just as important not to nurse either as it is to do the stuff like meditation, affirmations, CBT.
Otherwise your whole day is consumed by both and sometimes you just need to put your feet up with a cup of tea and piece of cake and do a crossword puzzle or something like that. x

[BlueIris]

Wise words, Carnation.

Mental illness is wretched, but it doesn't have to be the major part of who you are.

You can be our wonderful friend, instead, who just happens to live with anxiety and depression.

[Mrsmitchell1984]

I totally agree with both of you. Trouble is I can’t seem to take my mind off it when I am like this. It is a constant nag. I would be more than happy to forget about it - but I can’t.

If it was intermittent then maybe I wouldn’t be struggling with it so much?

Depression used to be in my life but never used to bother me that much but then I had to deal with a court case where a lady committed suicide and it’s scared the living hell out of me! Ever since I have been terrified to feel depression x

[Mrsmitchell1984]

On the plus side - if I feel anxious- shaky legs etc- I just let it be there- it doesn’t bother me and so it’s not there that much. I think I am seeing a pattern here x