I've suffered with GAD for about five years, up until recently I've been feeling a lot better, mostly because of stability in my life. The new stability has come from a new course I'm taking, and a new relationship which began back in November 2018.
Recently, my anxiety has returned and I have started feeling unusually suspicious about my partner's actions. I feel a lot more sensitive to criticism, and I also have these anxious thoughts that I am not good enough for her anymore, and that she is seeing someone else. I try and rationalise in my brain that this is unlikely, considering she has been recently asking me what I want for Christmas, and we are going on holiday next week to celebrate our first anniversary. But, if a period of time passes by when she is with her friends and she doesn't reply to a message, or if she is in a bad mood or sleepy, I worry that she is seeing someone else and my relationship is doomed.
I hate these thoughts because I love my girlfriend. She also says she loves me too and I try to believe her, but I'm so suspicious and uncertain of myself. My self-esteem is at a low ebb, I don't feel that I am strong mentally or worthy of love sometimes. The anxiety breeds depression in me and I need advice on how to get out of it.
I don't want to become one of those partners who is hard to be with and suspicious all the time. I want to be myself. Any replies appreciated.
Anxiouscow
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