Originally Posted by
itsmaliasheart
Hello.
Well, here I am. I’ve suffered from health anxiety for a few years now and stalked this forum for pretty much all my cancer worries. I managed to calm down enough to get help and go to therapy but had to stop after I moved away for college. Anyway, my anxiety flared up again a few weeks ago and this time I’m completely hopeless.
A few years ago, maybe two or three, I noticed these weird flappy, tube like things above (kinda looks like skin extensions as they’re attached to the skin below them) my vaginal opening but I initially though nothing of it as I thought it’s just normal anatomy and it’s just how the opening where the pee comes from looks like. Yesterday I made the grand mistake of googling symptoms of another issue (I pee a lot during the day and when my bladder is REALLY full I can’t always empty it on the first try but when I go again like five mins later, it’s fine) and apparently the urethral opening is not supposed to look like that at all! I spiralled into this worry frenzy after that and now I’m sure I either have vulvar or urethral cancer. I know I don’t fit the usual age group (I’m 21; about to turn 22 in a couple months) and I don’t have other red flags symptoms, like blood in pee or spotting between periods and I also don’t have itchiness down there beyond the occasional itch that goes away after a while. I think it’s also worth mentioning that I’m a virgin and can’t be sure if I would bleed after sex or feel pain during sex if I were sexually active, obviously.
I did make an appointment with my gyno after completely freaking out in front of my grandmother, but the appointment is a full two weeks from today and I don’t think I’ll be able to relax or even stay sane for that long of a period. I convinced myself that this time it really is cancer, I can’t think of anything else, I can’t relax and I feel like I’m never going to be able to laugh ever again. If anyone knows what this could be please let me know.
Thank you in advance for any kind words and help, it’s greatly appreciated.