Ugh, you guys. It's been more than a year since my anxiety was bad. I've been in regular therapy and doing great. I started law school, which was SO good for me because it gave me purpose again (I've been a stay at home mom for 5 years and my daughter started Kindergarten this year). But, the last few weeks have done a number on me!! The end of the semester was tough - I had a really hard paper to write that was all consuming. Then, it was finals week. Right in the middle of studying, my 5 year old got sick with an abscess in a neck lymph node that ultimately put her in the hospital on IV antibiotics for 5 days. I took one final the night before she went to the hospital but was able to defer the second one until this Tuesday, thankfully. But, the hospital stay was REALLY HARD. No sleep, seeing my girl in so much pain, etc... \
In the midst of this, my fibroids seemed to act up. It may have been stress related, but I have a ton of large ones and I had a lot of pain and pressure that is finally now subsiding. But, the last few days I've had so much head pressure/fogginess and get lightheaded when I stretch my body out (like stand up and stretch my torso). I used to get that dizziness with stretching until my fibroids went nutty and flipped my uterus over (long story) in the summer. I hadn't even though about this until I noticed the sensation again this week.
I've got myself worrying that my fibroids shifted position against and are pressing on something that's causing this pressure/dizziness. I know the most likely explanation is obviously anxiety, though, but these fibroids are a constant nag at me. In 2011 I had a giant one become necrotic and require emergency surgery. This trauma made me terrified of surgery but also anxious about just doing nothing with the fibroids. They stayed small for many years and just started growing this past year. They are such a pain in my ass!!
Anyway, I'm frustrated with this anxiety surge because I've been so good for so long.
I'm not sure why I'm posting, haha. Just for some good vibes and commiseration. It sucks that no matter how hard we work this beast is always lurking!!