Spiralling

[BlueIris]

Time to get your mental health under control, then.

[KK77]

Thought I would have felt a bit better today but............sadly not.

That's no surprise

I don't mean this in a patronising way but there is NOTHING wrong with you physically. The problems you have are of a psychological nature. You sound permanently depressed/anxious and unfortunately all the tests in the world won't change this.

You will still be miserable and anxious until you address the real issues you face.

[Carys]

I agree with the two above Zippy, even people who are ill, in chronic pain or involved in a terminal illness can laugh and enjoy life. Of course some suffer, but those who find the right mental attitude will be the ones who don't feel the pain as badly, or feel as sick . So, what was the outcome of your raised blood test thingy ?

[zippy]

I'm convinced I have something going on in my mouth/neck area. Been with my partner 22 yrs but only married 8 months. I'm scared hes going to get to the point that hes had enough.

[Carys]

OK, but what is the outcome of the discussion with the doctor about the raised es-something or other ?

Have you mentioned to them the mouth/neck area issue ?

[BlueIris]

So find a way to stop being so miserable and actively engage with others, Zippy. I'm sorry, I know it's harsh, but there's no miracle cure for this and if you start genuinely working on it people will find you a lot more pleasant to be around.

[DL45]

I live with real and permanent physical symptoms and issues from my real physical issues every. single. day. of. my. life. I'd be beyond a serial poster if I suffered with HA. The key words in your reply above are "you aren't living." I'm at a point in my life where realistically, with the physical issues I face, today could be my last day. I've survived cancer and two heart attacks. Either one or something else could rear it's head again and that's it. I watch as others my age or not that much older or younger pass away. Musicians, friends, family and others. That's just the reality. But rather than put a ball and chain around my neck, I "choose" to live. The things we regret most in life are the things we didn't do due to fear.

I mentioned the length of time you've been suffering. It's sapping the life out of you. Perhaps its time to start living and enjoying life and what it has to offer. Read the words in my signature. They apply to everyone.

Positive thoughts

I just wanted to say thank you for this post.....and yes, I did read your signature and I am going to really focus on those words, every day

Thank you x

[Gary A]

Thought I would have felt a bit better today but............sadly not.

I’ll probably get a bad reaction here but for me you’re enjoying this negativity way too much. A 3 word post about a scan being ok, which should really see you jumping for joy, and then we’re right back on to how bad you feel.

At what point should we just give up here, seriously? You don’t engage, you don’t try to be in any way positive, you don’t even seem happy when you get results that confirm that there’s absolutely nothing wrong with you.

You don’t seem to want to do anything other than tell everyone how ill you are and how terrible you feel. Be honest here, you want people to treat you like you’re seriously unwell, don’t you?

[zippy]

I am happy that the abdominal and pelvic scan were ok. The dr had wrote on "I am dealing with it" regarding the bloods, I think she meant because she knew I was getting the scan. I think its since I found out that the bloods weren't ok I am feeling crap again and of course google and symptoms. I know i am a pain and I'm so sorry. I appreciate all your responses.

[Gary A]

I am happy that the abdominal and pelvic scan were ok. The dr had wrote on "I am dealing with it" regarding the bloods, I think she meant because she knew I was getting the scan. I think its since I found out that the bloods weren't ok I am feeling crap again and of course google and symptoms. I know i am a pain and I'm so sorry. I appreciate all your responses.

So if the scan was the doctor “dealing with it” and the scan was totally clear, surely that then means that the bloods are now irrelevant? Surely the scan is the kicker here?

This is the type of logic that you aren’t trying to use, you’re simply looking for a negative and completely dwelling on it.

Also, why are you still Googling symptoms? For the love of all that is holy, isn’t the most prominent message on this entire board the message that tells HA sufferers not to do that? After ten years surely that should be a golden rule to you.

You do not have to apologise, but please, try even just a little to do some leg work here. Dwelling on negatives, refusing to engage with people about your anxiety, lamenting how unwell you feel, Googling symptoms, it all adds up to a person who is not only refusing to tackle their anxiety, but is actually opening the floodgates and allowing it to run riot.

This is your responsibility, it’s your illness. Put in the work and stop giving this thing free reign to ruin your life.