Re: How to deal with increased anxiety and panic attacks after death of loved one?
Once again, thank you all so much for your replies
The numbness has definietly mostly worn off now and the panic and anxiety has fully begun now. This week is going to be hard, I don't know how my mind and body will get through it tbh. My mind feels so hazed but feeling everything at the same time and my body feels so tense, especially my chest and back. I feel like they would snap if someone lightly touched them. Today we have the humanist coming out to discuss my stepdad's funeral service, Wednesday we are going to see him at the funeral parlour plus we have a family friend's funeral that day and then its my stepdad's funeral on Friday. I can't wait for it all to be over. My panic attacks have been through the roof and I am struggling to get out the house because of them but I feel like I am cracking up if I stay in too. I am still staying with my mum and as bad as this sounds, I can't wait until I can get home to my own surroundings. I know that sounds bad and I will stay as long as mum needs me and she is main priority but I feel like I can't grieve properly around her. I can cry in front of her but as we all know, grief isn't just crying. I am now feeling anxiety which to me can sometimes come out as anger or snapping and she is obviously the last person who needs to see that right now so I am bottling it in even further.
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C-PTSD (Complex Trauma), OCD, Panic Disorder, GAD
"Save your sympathy for someone else. I don't need it or want it. What you call a panic attack is merely a few normal chemicals that are temporarily out of place in my brain. It is of no significance whatsoever to me!"
"Recovery always lies ahead - however painful the moment"
"Recovery lies in the places and experiences you avoid"
Dr Claire Weekes.