Hey all,

I found a lot of posts about this topic but not found great advice. It started for me a few years ago with health anxiety about my chest/heart. With some nice help and explanation from my therapist I came of this type of health anxiety, but now I do have a fear of depression. I guess it started for me end of the summer in 2019 (august). I had my bachelor's degree in june and decided to do a master's program and started it in september at a new university. From the first moment it feels stressfull, and my intrusive suicide thoughts came up (don't know why, possibly because I read something about it?). I am disgusted by these thoughts, although they sometimes feel 'real'. When I feel stressed these thoughts are much more present then when I'm just relaxed.

Another fear what is really common to this is that I have kind of fear that I never find a job what I really enjoy and that it would lead to getting depressed with all consequences.

Does anyone recognize this and how to handle it?

Rinkrt