You're right Pulisa but I can't accept it and thats the part that troubles me. I SHOULD be able to, the only reason I can't is me but the part of me that won't allow it is all consuming as of late. I go through periods where I put my trust in the doctor and I'm alright but more recently I've lost the ability to even do that.
I've spiralled further since the weekend. Then I've tried to pull my socks up a bit, look at my kids and tell myself I can and will do it for them. Then I start thinking about the headache again and its back to square one. I've seen other people on here lose all rationality and I swore blind that would never be me but I'm ever so close to officially being one of those posters. I guess my problem is a persistent headache was always my BIG symptom fear and now its here its made the battle the toughest its ever been.