Guys, I just wanted to share my severe food safety fears, and maybe get few pieces of advice/
So in the past four years, I have developed very bad fear of food - whether it is safe, thoroughly cooked, and so on. To make a long story short, I have stopped eating out , I cook at home, I take always my own lunch to work. This , firstly , did not solve the OCD / fear, and secondly, it caused problems at home. My husband, and my son (when he is at home), tell me that I basically nuke the food - everything is overcooked and dry. I have not eaten or bought lettuce in four years now. I beg my son, who is at college, to NEVER eat raw vegetables, and especially lettuce, when eating outside. I am scared to buy food anywhere but Whole Foods, and then I wash it forever, and cook it for too long. The only thing I am sort of not afraid of is bakery goods - but this morning my husband brought me a piece of bakery which is sort of this muffin filled with delicious hazelnut cream, with a tiny hazelnut piece on top - I ate it, I loved it, and now I am scared ( of hazelnut piece). I am on the verge of calling the bakery to ask them if the hazelnut piece is also baked with the muffin, or put on top of it later?! WTF???
I do not know what to do anymore, this has become a serious problem. My hands are raw from overwashing, and nobody want to eat my overcooked food. I am truly desperate. Just to mention that I was in therapy on and off for many years, and decided that it cannot help me, and it cost my a fortune.
p.s. Please, nobody tell me that Whole Foods is not safe, because that is my only remaining refuge for food. One has to eat.
Any ideas, or advice, please. Also, can I get anything from a freshly baked muffin ( with cream inside)? I am probably pathetic, but do not know where to turn anymore.