Guys, when do you know when the time s right to try meds?
I was on sertraline and then citalopram for a year in 2018 but I hated them. Every morning when I reached for the medicine cabinet, it was like a reminder that I’m not ok.
I had side effects too...like low libido (I mean, mine is naturally quite low, but this was rediculous!) cystic acne, weight gain and capped emotions.
I worked hard to get off them, but I crashed out and relapsed badly. I’ve tried low intensity CBT as an alternative to going back on medication, but I’m not really getting better. And now I’m told the waiting list is another 12 months before I can start high intensity CBT.
I have “ok” days and bad days, but lately, maybe due to the pressures of Xmas and new year, I’ve forgotten how to feel any emotion but fear. I feel dead inside.
I get married in 8 months, but I’m not excited like I should be.
I want to run outside in the freezing rain just to feel something!
I’m wondering if going back on medication is my only option here? And how do I know if I’ve reached that point?