Originally Posted by
DarkSkies18
Hi there! I really needed to chime in here. I'm no stranger to health anxiety and I have been through my own lymphoma worries- which until I came to this site, had no idea how common they were. My health anxiety began after the birth of my second daughter who was born with a rare syndrome putting her at risk for seizures, strokes, and delays. She has not had ANY of these symptoms and has been doing wonderfully, yet the anxiety ate away at me for 4 years wondering when the "day would come". Somehow this transferred to my own health, worrying what if something happened to me and I left my daughters. Similar to how you feel with your parents in a way.
Anyways, I feel for you and I sympathize with you. The more you post, the more it sounds to me that you are coming to terms with a diagnosis you do not have yet. Although it's quite impossible to tell our anxiety to scram in an instance where you are awaiting tests and results, remember that as of right now, nothing has been diagnosed.
I also wanted to share with you a story about my coworker. She went in for routine blood tests which sent her to a hematologist. Her white bloods or red bloods were way off (can't really remember) but she also had an enlarged spleen and the doctor came out and said they were concerned about lymphoma. Because she didn't have any enlarged lymph nodes visible to biopsy she had to have a bone marrow test....which came back negative for lymphoma, etc.
I'm sorry for the long post, but just because the doctor is doing their job (very well) and indicating they want to rule something out, does not mean it is so.
Also wanted to mention that when I had two scares with health anxiety, 2 things happened. I lost my appetite completely, and I realized that our bodies produce psychosomatic symptoms. Our minds are powerful. The more we believe something, the more it can physically manifest (bodily speaking of course) lol.
I wish you the best with your tests and will be thinking of you. It is a stressful time of course.