im agoraphobic...
i've come a long way in my recovery and can do a hell of a lot of things i couldnt 2 years ago...
my last fight is against being able to go out on my own, i just cant do it!!!
i went to the doctors and got no help there and my boyfriend has now offered to pay for private CBT sessions for me (since i cant work and am not entitled to benefits and am officially skint and £22 overdrawn)...
but im terrified of even getting better, im not sure if its just that i cant imagine ever living a 'normal' life again and feeling 'normal' or the fact if i get better im gonna have to risk being a failure or if its just that im being lazy (even though i dont think it is)...
is anyone else scared of getting better or am i just being stupid???
if so, please put things into perspective for me so i can feel excited about it rather than scared!!!