Originally Posted by
PHR
Congrats on your own progress!
Couldn't even imagine that life at the minute.
I work from home, which has been mental lately, so sometimes really throw myself into my work as a distraction, but then struggle to switch off after. Always a problem with my agoraphobia, as it takes away options to keep myself busy!
I have been doing an online course called BeMindful, but struggle to sit with it sometimes, and apart from it relaxing me temporarily, I have yet to feel the benefit.
That's the thing really, although my thoughts have been getting increasingly dark, they are more anxious confusion, with my little brain racking itself to figure stuff out.
It seems the things I do to help myself seem to make me worse, but that's where the acceptance instead of fighting it off comes in I suppose.
I have a bit of a crisis meeting with my therapist later, so hoping that proves helpful.
I'm in a bit of a desperate way to be honest. Had anxiety issues for 12 years, but never this thought based, and never this mental.
My therapist sees it as progress because it used to turn into worrying about my health and things like that to mask it, so she's happy I'm seeing the actual thought based reasons, which made me even more angry! Haha!