Losing it a little
... Basically I've just run out of coping capacity with the world going nuts. I've had several nights of vivid nightmares and then today I woke up to my first properly violent IBS attack in years.
Work finally took the decision to close to students yesterday, but there's talk of keeping the libraries open for an extra week and everybody else on the team has kids or is self-isolating.
Had a pathfinder appointment with a lady from MIND on Tuesday, but as has happened before, I was incredibly cheerful and upbeat - she remarked that she'd never seen my smile drop and she thought it was a coping strategy.
I can't see an end to this madness and it scares me; I've reached the end of my mental health rope and urgently need some time to clear my head, but there's all this stuff that urgently needs to be done to set distance learning in place so I can't ease up and take the time I require to process this huge shift in the way I'll be living.
I seldom ask this, but somebody please help?
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Sometimes, it's better to light a flamethrower than curse the darkness. - Terry Pratchett