I’ve always had the thought “I would sacrifice ______(a person) , for____________ (something to happen(such as a team win a football match)” that caused me a great deal amount of stress. I was feeling guilty about this one person in particular as (the something to happen) did happen.

Anyway this name kept popping up in my life, and even so when i drew names out of hat his was the first name. I also got a facebook friend suggestion as a notification( ive never got a friend suggstion as a notification) with someone with the same name. I then even got a text message (defientally my first text from facebook) with another friend suggestion, this time a different person with the same name.

I cant deal with this now all my life i've tried to prove these sacrifice thoughts wrong, but now it feels so real.