just need to vent!

[bluesparkle]

hi
first of all sorry its me again going on about my problems i just dont know what to do or who to tell... and i know that just writing it here and people reading it that understand what it is like to live with anxiety/panic etc really helps.
i am stuggling... still want to be in touch with my ex...some days i am ok about it other times i am trying to text etc. my eldest lad is just not being himself(19)he was always the quiet one and now hangs around with a group i dont like i know i cant stop him but he lies to me and has been caught out several times.i have calmly explained that iw ould rather know where he is and he is safe then be lied to.
i go back to work on sunday and not sure how to cope... ive luckily been on annual leave for two weeks.
but mainly i just feel so alone... i want to know i wont be alone forever but on the other hand i dont want anyone!!!
i am trying to give myself time but i am an impatient so and so at times.
i want to be able to leave my past behind me and not worry or need to contact him. i want this pain to stop . this is just not like me i end up crying alot and just feeling worn out.
anyway like i said im sorry when so many of you are going through such hard times i do come here and read the posts and keep an eye on my friends!!! but i just dont have anything worth while saying at the moment.
thanks for listening
rach

[trac67]

Hi Rach,

Try to keep your chin up mate, a break up is always tough at first, but it does get easier, I hated it at first. but now I actually wonder if i would be able to live with anyone again now as I like my 'space'. I guess its what you get used to and change is always difficult to adjust to.

You can always come here to vent whenever you need to though.

Love

Trac xxx

[Piglet]

Urgh and who wants to share the remote control anyway!!!

Like Trac says you hang on in there hun and you may just come to find that you're happier without a new 'jumper' anyway

As regards the kids well as the mother of 3 teenagers that's a whole new subject!!!!!

Love Piglet

[Karen]

Thinking of you Rach

You are with friends here so lean on us for a while. We will help you through.

Karen xx

[bluesparkle]

thank you trac, piglet and karen...
i know i will get through this its just i hate feeling like this... yes i will come here when feeling low as you guys are just great...
and i cant wait for the day i come and say wow i like this...
well you have made me smile again it is really nice just knowing people understand
thank you
rach
x