Hi all,
I could really do with some advice. I'm not coping very well at the moment. I've been gradually getting worse over the past few weeks and today really was an all time low for me. Healthy anxiety is my biggest issue. There have been several things worrying me lately, and while most of them passed off in their own time, it's as if each one of them left me in a more anxious state than before I started it.
I'm due to check my breasts on Thursday, as I do every month, and I'm convinced I'll find something. I can't get that thought out of my head and my anxiety is out of control over it. And I think the lockdown is making it so much worse, not knowing if I can go to a doctor if I do find something or what would happen after that. I heard this morning that some cancer patients have had surgery postponed and that frightens the life out of me.
I don't know what to do anymore. My anxiety and thoughts are out of control and I'm feeling so drained from it all.
I lost my job recently and I know that is having an impact on my anxiety. Just working with people, talking to them about work stuff, or any other stuff, distracted me from my own thoughts. My HA definitely improved for the 2 years I had that job and now it seems as if everything is crumbling around me again. I'm really upset I lost my job, both from a mental health point of view and also financially.
I'm trying to get myself back on track but I feel I'm failing. I'm going for a walk every day, eating healthier, drinking water - baby steps I know. But even doing those things is turning into an uphill struggle.
I feel so miserable and scared and I really don't know where to go from here.
I want to just enjoy my life with my family but the constant fear is taking that away from me.
Has anyone ever felt this low but managed to pull themselves out of it?
I want to turn this around and come out the other end smiling. Any advice would be really really welcome!!
Thanks for reading.