Bad anxiety every day due to being alone

[BlueWater]

Hi everyone,
In the past i suffered from agoraphobia which i managed to overcome 8 years ago after the birth of my 1st child. I have been panic free for 8 years.
Now a year ago my husband left me and since my panic is back with a vengeance.
I wake up every morning with really bad panic attacks, it feels like general anxiety knowing that my life is a mess and the fear that it will never get better and that im on my own. Its horrible to wake up like this and i just want it to stop now somehow.
I hate being on my own, i cant cope with having noone to talk to and just being lonely. Now with the lockdown its even worse because i cant even go anywhere as i used to go out and just sit in costa just to have some people around me. I get horrible anxiety attacks when im on my own, i dont have many friends and the ones i have are always busy with their own families.
I cant distract myself with anything as im just finding it hard to concentrate on something and i end up just sitting there crying.
Its so so hard to be left on ur own feeling like this. Most days are just a struggle and im glad when the day is finished. I just want to feel normal again.

[Sam100322]

Hey I have pm you. Hope you are ok x

[Scass]

Hi everyone,
In the past i suffered from agoraphobia which i managed to overcome 8 years ago after the birth of my 1st child. I have been panic free for 8 years.
Now a year ago my husband left me and since my panic is back with a vengeance.
I wake up every morning with really bad panic attacks, it feels like general anxiety knowing that my life is a mess and the fear that it will never get better and that im on my own. Its horrible to wake up like this and i just want it to stop now somehow.
I hate being on my own, i cant cope with having noone to talk to and just being lonely. Now with the lockdown its even worse because i cant even go anywhere as i used to go out and just sit in costa just to have some people around me. I get horrible anxiety attacks when im on my own, i dont have many friends and the ones i have are always busy with their own families.
I cant distract myself with anything as im just finding it hard to concentrate on something and i end up just sitting there crying.
Its so so hard to be left on ur own feeling like this. Most days are just a struggle and im glad when the day is finished. I just want to feel normal again.

I’m sorry that you are so low.
Have you spoken to your doctor?

You’re never really alone with the internet. When I used to be up in the night with a babyC I’d scroll through twitter or instagram just to see other people awake.
Have the radio on in the background or listen to podcasts. They really help with the isolation.

[BlueWater]

I have been having bad anxiety attacks most of the day. Im having one right now and i just dont know what to do about it anymore. I have noone i can turn to and ask for support. Its so horrible.
My life is such a lonely place at the moment.

[Sam100322]

Have pm you again hope your ok x

[FrankT]

I feel exactly the same way. Nobody can help. Nothing's going to get better.

[BlueIris]

Frank, that's an incredibly cruel and unhelpful thing to say.

BlueWater, please drop me a message if you want to chat.

[FrankT]

I'm sorry, I meant for me nobody can help.

[ankietyjoe]

I'm sorry, I meant for me nobody can help.

Cutting out the carpet bomb self pity would be a good way to start helping yourself.

[FrankT]

You're right, it would.