Hello again T_T
I’m trying to get better about controlling my anxiety — even planning to find a therapist. My last mole panic ended, thankfully, but now something new has started up.
I’ve always had some issues with a dry, flaky scalp. Unfortunately, a big part of my OCD is picking at my skin, so I often mindlessly run my fingers through my hair pick while I’m doing things. (Kinda gross.)
A few days ago, I noticed I had what (I think) is a bit of psoriasis around my inner panty line areas. The skin was pale, scaly, and after I started moisturizing it it’s been itchy as hell. I guess add psoriasis to my list of problems.
So that brings me to my new fear... I was running my fingers through my hair and noticed this one particular spot. It gets flaky a lot. I scratched at it out of habit, and now it’s like.... leaking, I guess. It’s wet my hair around the roots a bit and when I touch my finger with it, I can feel it. So, I freaked out and asked my fiancé to look at my scalp. He said it’s not red or anything, just clearly picked at too much. I tried to calm down, but I already feel myself obsessing : I keep feeling for it, and even kept trying to take videos with flash to see if I could spot anything. From what I saw.... it’s only a little red but you can definitely see the dampness. Now I’m freaking out. Even though I know this is likely just the result of me scratching too much, and the reoccurring peeling spot could be tied to psoriasis or something, my brain keeps clinging to the worst!
I’ve had a lot of problems with my skin, but honestly, I’m not too familiar with psoriasis. Not even sure if that’s what it actually is, but that’s the closest thing I can think of. I read that eczema is more likely to weep than psoriasis, so I wonder if it could be that, too. It’s just so ITCHY still but feels so raw. Ugh.
Has anyone had anything similar? The leaking immediately made my mind jump to something really bad. 😞 Does it sound like psoriasis? Honestly, considering shaving my head down again just to see things like this better....