Re: Going through mental illness without having anybody to talk to..
The thing is, that normal (whatever that means) isn't binary, it's a curve - some exist towards the centre and others towards the far end. All of us are on that same curve, though.You don't know what others are going through, either, in part because nobody talks about mental ill-health.
You should try raising it with your friends - you may be surprised by the positive response you get. I know I was when I opened up a few months back. A word of advice, though: to make a friend, you have to be a friend. Take time to really listen to others and offer help when you can, even if it's just a sympathetic ear or a few words of encouragement or congratulations. I know it's tough when anxiety fills your world (I lost so many friendships that way!), but you can't make others responsible for your happiness.
One final thing: some people are always going to think you're weird, and that's okay. That's their problem. The people worth keeping will always stick around, and that's why you have to treat them well.
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