Increase in anxiety/panic, when I try to relax!

[ankietyjoe]

I get that, and the fear is actually about making myself worse for the rest of the day

The irony here is THAT thought process IS making you worse.

[LittleLionMan]

Yep. My mind is spiralling into panic now from being scared of sitting quietly, it's darting all over the place, and this is what I can't handle. I don't even know what to do or tell myself, so I end up just trying to let it pass until it either does or I have a panic attack. Just annoys me that I have such a huge window from when the worry starts, to when the panic comes, yet there's nothing I can do to intervene.

I'm worrying about absolutely nothing now, and my mind is spiralling. It makes me feel like I'm going crazy.

[LittleLionMan]

Yep, and now it's turned into a full blown panic attack. Can you see what I mean, I get plenty of warning. Haha! 😭

[ankietyjoe]

Yep, and now it's turned into a full blown panic attack. Can you see what I mean, I get plenty of warning. Haha! 

Yep, it's all 'normal'.

But good on you for laughing at it.

You're seeing the thought pattern that causes the panic. It's nothing external, it's just a learned response you need to unlearn.

[LittleLionMan]

Being scared of doing nothing is terrifying. This is when I don't know what to do. There wasn't even a big intrusive though, my mind was actually empty after my run if anything. It's panic over nothing, which is why I can't get my head around it in any way.

[ankietyjoe]

Anxiety disorder IS panic over nothing. Try and accept that.


'Thank you Mr Panic, but I don't need you right now. I'm sitting here trying to chill, your presence is not necessary'.

Etc

[LittleLionMan]

This is why I'm hopeful in something way, as this is my only major problem, being able to sit with myself, I've only lost the ability to do this in the past few months, when the symptoms evolved into being so cognitive. If I could crack this, it would allow me the down time to kick on with everything else.

[ankietyjoe]

I have in the past described a common journey with anxiety as the process of removing all triggers from your life until you get to the point where you're just left with you.

That's pretty much where you are now, and hopefully you'll soon come to the realisation that if you are the trigger, you are also the solution.

[LittleLionMan]

It was learning I was the trigger that's made me so scared of my own mind.

[ankietyjoe]

Well then, you're on your own with this one. It's now up to you to reverse that situation by not reacting to your own benign triggers.