Increase in anxiety/panic, when I try to relax!

[pulisa]

And this set up doesn't work for you. You don't want to be imprisoned on your family estate long term. You need your mental and physical freedom.

[pulisa]

This is where I get stuck with the 'existential' questions, as there is no rational way to answer them, because there is no answer. They aren't questions like 'if I go out, I might get hit by a car', they are questions like 'how do I know all this is real'. Perhaps it's a mild derealisation, I don't know, but it's what make me think I'm going insane.

Going down the solipsism route is a guaranteed way to tie yourself in mental knots..What's the point?

[pulisa]

This is where I get stuck with the 'existential' questions, as there is no rational way to answer them, because there is no answer. They aren't questions like 'if I go out, I might get hit by a car', they are questions like 'how do I know all this is real'. Perhaps it's a mild derealisation, I don't know, but it's what make me think I'm going insane.

So was Villa staying up all a big dream?

[LittleLionMan]

Going down the solipsism route is a guaranteed way to tie yourself in mental knots..What's the point?

I don't choose to go down it. It comes as an intrusive thought and then I can't get rid of it.

[LittleLionMan]

So was Villa staying up all a big dream?

Haha, it felt like it!

[pulisa]

Try telling all the Villa fans on twitter that it was all fake and just an illusion...I imagine they might tell you to stick your theories where the sun don't shine!

[pulisa]

I don't choose to go down it. It comes as an intrusive thought and then I can't get rid of it.

It's just a thought which you can choose to believe or choose to let it go without analysis

[LittleLionMan]

It's just a thought which you can choose to believe or choose to let it go without analysis

I'm trying to let it go now, but it's been here for ages, and is increasing with momentum and I'm starting to have a panic attack. This is my whole problem right here. If I could solve this, I would be in a FAR better place.

[pulisa]

It's not a mathematical problem which you can solve. You need to believe that panic attacks are annoying irritations , nothing more. You need to believe that your reaction to having a panic attack is the key to being able to manage your anxiety disorder.

[LittleLionMan]

I truly wish is was that simple for me.

I've perked up a bit now anyway, been for my run, and eaten dinner, so overall it's actually been one of my better and more produc days.