Re: Social anxiety worse now!
I was diagnosed with social phobia when I was 13. GP said 'You're just really shy. The more you socialise, the easier it will get dear'.
Yeah, right. No matter how many times I tried to socialise the results were always the same. Social and communication skills of a wheelie bin. Severe anxiety. Headaches. Exhaustion. Full on fight or flight response, and I tried until I had a breakdown aged 46, and then a nice lady told me I was firmly on the autism spectrum..
Like you, Sarah, the lockdown wasn't an issue because I've been in training for it all my life. Home is where I feel safe, and 'normal'.
Social distancing suits me too because I don't have to avoid serial huggers. The anomaly is that I hug my kids whenever I get the chance..
I totally get the avoidance thing. It's been lifelong for me - interspersed with numerous attempts at 'socialising myself' in order to 'fit in' which was like shoving a velociraptor into a field of sheep and expecting it to blend in...
For a short while, the world was a lot more autism friendly, and the pressure was off in so many ways, but the loss of life bothers me a hell of lot more than having to navigate this world with a brain that malfunctions every time I step outside my own front door.
Things will gradually return to something like they were before, and us introverts/autistics will have to cope as best we can as we've always had to..
But I'm kind of hoping they keep the 2 meter rule going in shops...
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I'm not afraid of death because I don't believe in it. It's just getting out of one car, and into another. ~ John Lennon