Hi, just checking in. Still waiting for my therapy appointment as unfortunately the one I thought I had wasn't in the computer. I've reached a strange place the past few weeks. I'm still finding things that I'm convinced are cancer every time I look in the mirror, but it's like my health anxiety has reached burn out as I panic a lot less.

I realised the other day that I've pretty much worried about every disease I could possibly get so there's no point wasting energy going over old ground when I see or find something. I've decided it's inevitable that some disease is going to happen to me in the next 10,20,30 years (I'm nearly 50) and when it does, I've already done all the research so I might as well get on with life for as long as I can.

It'll be interesting to see what my therapist thinks of this mindset. I'd love to be positive about the future and not have this constant feeling of doom, but it feels like that's never going to happen so I might as well just roll with it instead.