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  1. #1
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    So many problems......😔

    Hi all

    I am a long time member of NoMorePanic and have been here many times over the years with one thing and another

    I have under active thyroid,fibromyalgia,ibs and Iím on Lanzoprozole for acid been on medications for all of that for quite some time

    I suffer terrible with crippling anxiety 😔 mainly based around my health

    I am 47 now and I am petrified of hospitals doctors any kind of test itís not the actual test that worries me itís the results I have been this way since my mam passed away suddenly from a Aortic Stenosis at just 62 years old this was nearly 12 years ago

    My health anxiety is focused on my chest heart and anything to do with it but I am also petrified of cancer and of course the corona virus

    I have had a terrible 4 weeks it all started when I trimmed the hedge in my front garden with an electric hedge trimmer it was a hot day I had just been for a walk with my son and I drank 2 cans of fizzy pop in quick succession

    I ended up having a massive panic attack lasting about 30 mins it was horrendous and all I could think about was paramedics coming having to go hospital it was so horrible I havenít been right since

    I live with a permanent scared feeling either in my chest or my stomach turns Iíve developed panicky feelings when going out walking but I have forced myself to go and I am proud of myself for that my stomach feels constantly on edge I am probably going toilet every 3 days instead of every day as before Iím not really interested in food although I am eating I can sit and feel perfectly fine and then out of nowhere I can start feeling scared and panicky

    Iíve had lots of little panic episodes since that Friday a month ago I have been wondering if my ibs is now the cause of my panicky feelings

    Iíve had time off work for the first time ever with my anxiety I had been doing so well with it

    I feel like Iíve let myself down and itís awful

    Can anyone relate?

    Thank you

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    Re: So many problems......😔

    Yes could be me. Iím 45 female and been living with this hell for most of my life. For me personally, it stemmed from being sexually abused as a child by my father. It took me many years to learn this and understand the correlation of that trauma and how it relates to my anxiety.

    Iím on medication and in counseling and was doing quite well until recently when I slammed into the wall of darkness. I can relate to what youíre saying. How you will be doing well and bam, itís like a huge setback. Setbacks are quite normal with this affliction. Meds and therapy are great tools but not a cure all. What they do is help you reach months or years of remission. My first question would be are you on meds? Therapy? Etc.

    I could go on and on about the physical symptoms that constantly plague me. Specifically my stomach which in this latest go around, has me constantly feeling like I have butterflies, churning, hunger pains, growling etc. itís bothering me so much I made an appt with my gastro.

    You are not alone. And thatís my point. Everything you wrote is so relatable. Even though it feels like itís never going to be better, things will improve. It may take a bit but continue your walking and TRY to practice meditation. I wish you well.

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    Re: So many problems......😔

    Hi Scaredtoo

    Thank you so much for your lovely reply

    Today hasnít been great I wake every morning with such high hopes and when I start feeling bad again it puts me on a downer

    The thing I am most struggling with is this constant ache in my chest and back I suffer with my trapezius muscles and they are quite painful right now thatís like my upper back above my bra strap but it makes my chest hurt in the same place and thatís what scares me I always think itís my heart

    The doctor had a good listen to my heart on Monday and she checked my blood pressure and oxygen levels she said my heart rate is a little faster than she would expect to see but nothing she is concerned about she said the normal range is 70-100 bpm mine was 93-95 she said it was completely understandable with how I have been feeling I was really hoping after seeing her I would feel better and I do to a certain extent I just feel so fed up and exhausted with it

    I am due to go back work Monday evening and I am worried about that too will I be able to complete the 2 shifts a week that I do without losing my mind 😩

    I hate feeling this way I wish it would just ease now

    Thanks again

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    Re: So many problems......😔

    Hello,
    Iím sorry that youíre going through so much.
    My Dad had the same thing as your Mum, and my health anxiety flared up again after he died a few years ago. I think that the basic rule of panic attacks is that if you fear them enough then they will come. Youíve been on walks so many times and been fine, and thatís what you need to keep telling yourself. Over and over until it sticks.
    Itís good that your doctor gave you the all clear, if they werenít concerned then you shouldnít be either ok? Itís their job to know about medical issues not yours

    I hope returning to work goes ok. Take lots of care & donít be too hard on yourself. Everyone has blips, we just need to help ourselves move on.


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    Re: So many problems......😔

    Hi Scass

    Thank you so much for your reply I apologise I have only just seen this I didnít realise my thread has a page 2 🤣

    The doc appt went well she checked my blood pressure heart rate oxygen levels and had a good listen to my chest and heart she told me my heart rate was a little higher than she would expect apparently normal is between 70-100 bpm and mine was 93-95 she said she was not at all concerned given how I had been feeling

    I think on the whole I have felt better since the appt but I do still have some issues it is just that when I get the chest ache or panicky I donít let it consume me and go into full on panic mode

    Overall I feel sad like I donít feel like I am happy right now and it feels like I never will be but Iím hoping thatís just the anxiety trying to keep its grip on me

    I am due back at work Monday I am nervous I know I will feel better when I have completed both my shifts without panicking or coming home I am determined I will I think then I may feel like I am winning

    I am sorry about your dad it is so difficult when they leave so suddenly it feels like everything turned to crap the day my mam died and the only thing that would make it better is if she was here which obviously canít happen so that makes me feel like I will never be over this

    My 3 grown daughters have offered to pay for councelling for me because the nhs waiting list is so long and I feel like there are people out there with worse problems than me that need it

    I am hopeful things will get better I do feel like I need some help but Iím not sure what

    Thanks again xx

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    Re: So many problems......😔

    Hi ScaredCaz

    I felt so sad when I read your post, you have a lot to deal with.

    I have some of the symptoms you mention, with the pains in chest, ribs and back. I think mine are all realted to digestive problems though.

    That feeling like you will never be happy is a familiar one. But, the worst of it is, its because our brains wont let us be happy. I recently watched "After Life", and there was a scene in which someone said that id there is no after life, we might well all kill ourselves now. To which Ricky Gervais replied "thats ridiculous, you wouldn't turn a film off if you were enjoying it, just because you know its going to end eventually". Thats what I feel like I am doing to my life.

    What lovely daughters you have, offering to pay for counselling. Do you think you will? Never think that your problems/anxiety are not worthy of attention, you deserve to get help

    Take care

    Inanna xx

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    Re: So many problems......😔

    Hi Inanna

    Thank you so much for your reply

    I too feel like my back and chest issues are due to digestive issues I have ibs my stomach has felt like a washing machine most of the time for the past 5 weeks

    I get panicky before I need to poop (sorry for tmi) and then feel better after then when my body starts the process of digesting food again I donít feel great again

    I am also affected when my period is due which is something else I have to deal with and right now I am ovulating so I donít feel good

    I had panic attacks on my walk today my daughter pointed out it was Friday which was the day I first took Ill so maybe subconsciously I am aware of that

    I have never felt this helpless I canít look forward to anything itís like this enemy in my head wonít let me

    My daughter has emailed the therapist she had found so I guess I will be giving councelling a try I would do anything to even feel like I did before this flare up I still dealt with anxiety every day but I could manage it right now I feel I canít

    I really hope I find some relief from this Iím not sure where it will end

    Thanks again xx

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    Re: So many problems......😔

    Hi scaredcaz

    there is a link with ibs and oestrogen, so things can get worse at certain times of the month, just before a period is one of those times. My daughter suffers a lot with ibs, and has terrible digestive issues which are cyclical. She is also b12 deficient.

    you should definitely give the counselling a go

    Inanna xx

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    Re: So many problems......😔

    Hi all

    Things are still not good for me 😔

    I just donít know what to do anymore I feel like I will never feel normal again

    My period started 2 days ago and itís early by a few days not exactly sure how many but no longer than a week makes me worry why 😔

    Still have a constant scared feeling and Iím still constantly thinking about bad things happening ending up in hospital I find myself day dreaming about it

    I dread going out for a walk didnít go yday because of rain not sure about today yet

    This is the worse I have ever suffered with this and Iím convinced I wonít get over it without a hospital visit the absolute last thing I want

    I spoke to a therapist on the phone on weds she was nice she said the first thing she knows is how strong I am and after explaining everything she said she understood why I was where I am I wish I understood then maybe I could fix it

    I just donít feel like myself I feel like Iím watching myself go through this and canít do anything about it 😔

    Thanks guys I always feel better writing it down

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    Re: So many problems......😔

    Hello,
    Sorry youíre having such a bad day, but Iím glad that writing it down helped. Thatís a huge thing in cbt. I actually find it really hard to write it down, itís like confronting a problem, and Iím a big avoider!
    Can you try something else? Iím re-arranging my desk because my monitor keeps giving me a sore neck, itís a small task but itís hopefully going to improve things & will make me feel better.
    Iím glad you spoke to a therapist.


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