Your heart has been tested. You have no heart issues. Ectopic beats are common, and
normal.
They are waking you up because you are sensitised and hyper-focused on what's happening in your body. This is classic with health anxiety.
The stomach cops for many nervous symptoms. I have this. When I am really anxious, I can see it pulsing away and I've had scans and MRIs which show nothing wrong at all.
What do you expect? You stopped doing it and the sensations went away. You pressed it again and they're back. (logic)
Where is your evidence?
Both are explained by anxiety and constant pressure on your artery, so where is your evidence for aortic damage?
I'll give you a tip. When I feel ill, as I often do with my condition, I get dressed, put my make-up on and tell myself that, yes, I feel crap, but I am going to get on with my day anyway. HA me would have crawled back into bed and stayed there - terrifying myself with delusions of terminal illness and my imminent demise. Your self-talk is negative, and it's the negative stuff that you believe. I read your comments and those positive bits slipped in-between your fears are not what you believe. Fear is in control with you, and with anybody who has health anxiety. Fear is the driver of the 'crazy train in your mind. It will stop for you. It will always stop for you, but it's your
decision to get on even though it feels like it's not. Once on the train, you can't get off until the next stop, and in the case of HA this means a normal test result or reassurance from a GP. But you go have a cup of tea and breathe easily for a short while, and then you hear that sound of the train on the tracks and your heart fills with fear once more..
I absolutely understand, and empathise with where you are, but you do seem to be functioning whereas I reached a point where my brain shut down, and so did my body. I don't want that for you, or for anybody. I basically
thought myself into a nervous breakdown, and it really did feel like I was broken. But I wasn't broken. It was a case of when I have too many tabs open on my pc - it gets stuck and I have to shut down and restart the computer. Well, my brain did it for me because, as always, it was trying to
protect me.
You absolutely
need therapy.
You absolutely need to know that you're not alone.
And you need to know that people care about you.
It will be a happy day for me when I see your success story on here, and you
can do it.
Finally, I used to be terrified of my own pulse. I would feel sick at the sensation of it, and I was hyper-aware of it, and pulsing all over my body. I would lie in the bath and watch my tummy pulse and fear would consume me. As I said, my scans were clear. They've always been clear. And then, instead of Googling symptoms, I researched anxiety. I also got CBT and I got better. Now, I feel my pulse, and I thank my body for keeping me alive. I also use it as a gauge for my anxiety. If I can
feel it (not by taking it) I know I have to up a few gears with relaxation. When I am no longer aware of it - I know my anxiety levels are falling - so gold star for Nora!
I'm rooting for you pb.