I am so sad that after 6-7 months of feeling great (citalopram 40mg) I am now just where I was before.
Basically I have been eating pretty badly recently, lots of coffee, not enough water, no fibre etc and have had constipation. No feeling I need to go but I used to go every day now it’s like every 2-3 days and always quite dry/hard.
I decided enough was enough and have cut back on coffee and eating lots more veg and a couple of days ago I went and it hurt when it came out as it was much bigger than recently. Anyway, I now don’t check the toilet anymore after I was becoming obsessed, but this time I glanced at the tp and there was red blood on it! None I could see on the stool though.
Next day I had a normal visit to the toilet, then today it was a bit drier and low and behold there’s a bit of blood on the tp.
I’m worried the pain and blood is BC. Specifically rectal cancer 😢.
I feel so down and depressed but the strange thing about the citalopram I can’t even cry I just feel like I want to die again.
I’ve tried ringing doctors the phones always engaged.
I have gained 5kg recently and don’t think I have any other symptoms, but I haven’t had blood tests recently.
What should I do 😢