I have been on paroxetine for two weeks or a little over now, and I have felt some improvement. It’s hard to explain, like I still worry, but not the panic attack kind... it’s like I am able to tell myself that one way or another it is going to work out. So I think that’s a positive. I am only on 20 mg and I have an appointment soon for her to check my progress and possibly up my dosage if she feels it needs to be.
So I have had these bumps in my armpit area above my bra line for awhile now. I did a video chat a month ago and had a dr look at them, he told me they did not look like skin cancer and told me that it was hidradenitis suppurativa. I felt better for awhile, but then I felt myself worrying again because they have been there months and months. I video chatted another doctor this morning. She told me that the color and location does not raise alarms about skin cancer and told me to try warm compresses on it and see it that helps me any. So I have had two doctors tell me it does not look like skin cancer, but the thing is is that i latch onto this statement she made, “if it does not go away or gets worse, I would suggest getting them looked at in person.” Out of everything she said, I find myself latching into that. And I am not panicky or anything, or asking for reassurance other than what the doctor just told me, I just keep thinking about it. They have been there several months, I don’t think they are going away, but she said there are not any big red signs for them being cancerous.
I guess I need to just work on accepting what the doctors tell me. And it is hard to not play the what if game.