Hi there hope you’re doing ok. I am in a very strange dilemma, and, essentially I feel like if people could experience being in my mind and all the thoughts etc. then there would be a mutual agreement that, yes, I should be euthanised (yes, I know this sounds unlikely/is obviously impossible/sounds drastic/extreme/crazy etc.). BUT although it sounds incredibly irrational, potentially it’s true, we can never know. I should add that I realise a lot of people with mental health problems would say similar, so in this instance if it were imagined that there really is zero hope, and that in some way is akin or even worse than being diagnosed with a painful terminal illness. Sorry if any of this sounds weird or like I’m being pretentious, I am not naturally this way. I’m also very tired.
Another quandary...is suicide ever actually ok? if someone’s pain is so great and will always be there ruining their life (imagine this as a fact). If someone who is intelligent had a certainty that all their loved ones (and strangers) would actually SUPPORT such an action and potentially even assist them (I know it’s illegal/ potentially wrong, I’m talking hypothetically here), although the pain is immeasurable, it’s not impossible that everyone might actually agree it is a necessary “choice”?! I feel I’m in this position and people will naturally disagree (as I would have 3 months ago) but it’s not actually an IMPOSSIBLE idea. I mean the idea that IF they could experience being me and then going back to being them then they would wholeheartedly agree and even support it (despite the impact on themselves, as in it really is THAT bad). Please be open mind about this ‘question’, I can imagine some of the responses but I am curious. I know it sounds extreme, and I’m sorry if I offend or anything, potentially being paranoid about that comment/ I’m incredibly tired and obviously in a bad frame of mind. Much love and look forward to hearing people’s opinions... I think!! 😊