Thankyou pulisa, i know I can be frustrating and draining on times I'm just hoping that we are doing the right things. I know noone can say for sure but I am grateful for everyones help on here xxx I am fed up of the fear and constant thinking is what we doing good enough but I guess I know deep down that we cant do much more as to stop everything coming in (food and deliveries) is impossible. My fear is overwhelming on times but the good days are more frequent and I enjoy those.
Midnight mouse thankyou for your suggestion of trying to figure out why this is so different xx I purposely have stopped listening to or researching anything covid related and I honestly cant understand y I find it so difficult to rationalise this illness maybe it's because at the start it was all about underlying conditions causing death etc. I think also its because the people with those conditions in here are my husband a daughter and my father died from.complications that arose from a heart transplant when I was young after contracting a similar virus. This certainly has had me in a flat spin but I am trying so hard to focus on all we are doing and I am so grateful for everyone on here xxx